Hello,
Once again I am slow in writing about my experience, but I found that it is necessary to repeat the exercise before I can truly comment. I listened to the audio without listening to the loving-kindness one and found it to be very relaxing and somewhat confusing. That was on my first attempt. I listened to the first audio the next day, and then followed with the new one. This time I actually understood the premise: a quite mind.
Once I understood that the random thoughts were capturing my attention and refused to allow them to hold me captive, I was actually able to focus on my breathing. I used the sound of the ocean in the background to adjust my breathing pattern and from that point it was a remarkable experience. I was able to lie their and enjoy the silence of my mind... no thoughts about the kids, my husband, the dogs, just a quiet bliss.
This was remarkable because I have never experience complete mental rest. My mind is always thinking about something. So this was definitely a different experience. I emerged rested but not sleepy, my mind felt refreshed and my thoughts were actually clearer. I will continue to do both of the exercises until the stillness becomes a natural ability.
Teal
I found it hard to focus on subtle mind like i kept going to other thoughts and places and times and then by the time i got myself back on track I was going off track again.
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